MoodPosted by Thomaseron Mon, May 01, 2017 16:31:32
As I told you last time, she got flowers from me.
I think it's safe to say she liked them, like, a lot!
On Friday (the last one, not the next) a friend held a party to celebrate her birthday.
I surprised her by showing up. I had told her that I was pretty sure I couldn't. When I told her it was true, because I didn't know at the time. Anyway, she was happy to see me, and thought it was a good birthday present.
When I left she gave me two hugs. One kinda normal hug, like between good friends I guess. Then I got a second one, maybe a bit longer, it was har to tell, but this time she really sqeezed to the point where I almost had trouble breething.
Does that mean something? Does it mean what I want it to? Am I missing something?
Or am I just hoping for something that will not be?
Guess I'll have to talk to her, 'cause my mind is killing me.
MoodPosted by Thomaseron Tue, April 25, 2017 14:45:19
No, really, it did. Still don't know if we can become more than friends, though.
But her reaction to the flowers I sent her for her birthday was really positive.
A friend of ours is throwing a birthday party for her this weekend, and when I was invited I was pretty sure that I wouldn't be able to make it because of previous plans. Turns out I can make it, so if everything goes well, she'll be (hopefully positively) surprised when I show up.
Also, as I'm typing this the snow is falling outside. It's late April. #GlobalWarming is a #myth. #sarcasm
Don't know if hashtags work here, but why not try, right?
Have a nice day!
MoodPosted by Thomaseron Thu, February 16, 2017 09:34:25
Remember last time when I said it would take a couple of days to feel better?
Yeah, it took a week! And I recognize the feelings from a similar situation from a couple of years ago. You ever seen Sword Art Online? I'd like to have what Kirito and Asuna has; unconditional love. Does that still exist...?
Have a nice day! :)
WeightlossPosted by Thomaseron Tue, February 07, 2017 11:18:50
Well, that's a title open for interpretation! ;-)
For two reasons I'm losing it.
The better one is that I've lost some weight since December. About 6 kilograms to be precise. Feels nice! What I've done is that I've cut back on carbs a lot, but not completely. I have, however, stopped eating chips/crisps, candy and if I have a Pepsi it's not very often. Yeah, I could've written soda, but I only drink Pepsi because I think it's the best one.
But yeah, 6 kilos down, and counting.
The other way I'm losing it is because I had a visit from her again this weekend.
When she left I felt empty again, and it'll hurt a bit for a couple of days until next time. You might wonder why I don't tell her. My past has scarred me, so I'm afraid to scare her away completely if I tell her. That's why. And who'd want a fat person?
I was gonna link a song here, but you'll have to find it yourselves.
Jerry Lee Lewis - The hurtin part.
It's available on Spotify at least.
Until next time! :)
Random stuffPosted by Thomaseron Tue, December 27, 2016 11:33:50
Well, this is awkward...
What's the point of having a blog if I'm not using it? Good question.
I don't have an answer for it. Mostly, I don't know what to write, I guess.
Who'd be interested? Why? Who'd wanna know that I'm at the highest weight of my life?
That I break down a bit when I know that she will visit me, or that she has visited me?
It's not her fault though. I enjoy her company. As it is, we're friends and I'd rather keep it that way than losing her completely. I'll give it time, and if it grows into something more I'll let it happen.
But enough of the depressing stuff.
It's almost a new year, with new opportunities. This year I'm really gonna try to lose the extra weight I'm carrying around. My back hurts, sometimes I lose the sense of touch in one of my legs, depending on how I sit. Don't know if that's the correct term, but I think you know what I mean.
I currently weigh about 153Kg, or 337 lbs for those of you who don't understand kilograms. We've arranged yet another weight loss challenge at work, and this time I'm gonna try to win. I know exactly what I need to do; exercise, eat less carbs, and stay away from stuff that's not healthy like chips, candy, soft drinks and alcohol.
Hopefully I can manage my temper. I get quite grumpy when I'm not allowed to eat what I want. Hopefully it won't affect my temper at work. I have to be nice to people there, since I work with IT support, among other things.
Hopefully I'll post a vlog on youtube soon as well. Only posted one thing there this year.
Anyway, I'm gonna end this here. Thanks for reading! :-)
MoodPosted by Thomaseron Wed, February 17, 2016 09:29:13
For a while now, I've felt quite good. Not exactly happy, but not depressed. More like, on
I've been between neutral and happy. Lately though, I'm more between neutral and sad.
From January, as I mentioned last entry, we have this weight loss challenge at work. So my primary tactic is eating a bit less than before, but most importantly skipping a lot of carbs. I wonder if that messes with my mind...
During fall I ate pretty much what I wanted, and I felt good. I gained weight, but besides from that, I felt good.
The thing is, if it is a "lack" of carbs, I can force myself to feel better. If not, I guess it's back to the meds...
WeightlossPosted by Thomaseron Tue, February 09, 2016 15:11:19
So yeah, I suck at losing weight. Or, well, maybe I don't suck at losing
I'm way better at gaining weight! Anyway, at work we've started up a competition again and the first three weeks I lost 5.5 kilos, or about 12 pounds, I guess. So I'm currently at about 143,5 kilos. This year I'm gonna try to reach my goal for real.
This last week I've celebrated mine and my sister's birthday, so cakes were involved. Today we celebrate what is called "fettisdagen" here in Sweden. You might have heard of fat Tuesday. The day when we come together to celebrate all the fat people and pig out on "fettisdagsbullar" or "semlor".
Just kidding, we don't celebrate fat people, but we do pig out...
No more use of "celebrate" in this post. Well, except for that one...
I'm gonna post a vlog on my vlogging channel soon as well.
Till next time!
MoodPosted by Thomaseron Mon, September 07, 2015 10:15:54
Haven't written anything here in forever, but this blog is still alive.
I'm paying for this space, so... ;-)
So a couple of weeks ago one of my cousins got married. The reception
was a cosplay party, kind of, so me and my nephew went as L and Light, from Death Note. If you haven't watched that anime I strongly recommend that you do! It's good!
The party was fun, and we stayed late as usual. Problem is that the day after I had
almost zero energy. It wasn't that my body was tired, it was different. Two weeks
later I'm still not back to normal, and I didn't even drink alcohol because I was
the designated driver. It's like a need a reboot to get back on track again.
I have gained some weight this summer though, so that probably doesn't help.
Have to get out again and excersize, and the afternoons and evenings during
the Swedish autumn are a bit chilly and the air is crisp, if it's not raining.
I'm getting off the topic here, so I'm gonna end this with a picture of me and my nephew dressed as L and Light. :)